Last night, my book club met. We have coffee and dessert, then discuss the book—and we really DO discuss the book!
I’ve been fine not having dessert for the past 8 or 9 months. It has been hard, but I’ve done it. A couple of times, I’ve had small bites, but mainly, I’ve just skipped the food.
The time change threw off my whole day, so I found myself scrambling to cook dinner just 30 minutes before the club meets. Fortunately, we meet around the block, just four houses away, so I managed to do a quick stir fry (red cabbage, spinach, and beef) just in a nick of time. I did not want to go into the meeting without food in my stomach.
It is HARD to eat cabbage quickly. It just does not lend itself to a fast meal, which is probably a good thing. Meals should be enjoyed slowly, not shoveled down, but I will admit that I was shoveling last night.
I came into our neighbors’ kitchen and saw a giant chocolate cake from one of my favorite local bakeries. Chocolate cake with chocolate buttercream frosting.
I was powerless to resist. Simply unable, even with a stomach full of cabbage.
I ate a piece, and didn’t even ask for a small piece. I just took what was offered, and enjoyed every last bite.
It is OK. I am OK. I was still under my allocated calories for the day, even after logging it. I drank tons of water before, during, and after eating it. And, after all, I’d been for almost an hour-long run just a few hours before the club met. I enjoyed it, savored it, but didn’t go back for seconds. This morning, I was only up 0.2 pounds over yesterday, which is pretty standard for how my weight fluctuates day to day.
If I eat dessert once a month at book club, that will be OK. Some months, I’ll probably be able to resist, or ask for a smaller slice of whatever treat is on hand.
I will say that I was up really late last night, positively vibrating from all of the sugar and cocoa in that cake! And my stomach wasn’t just sitting there being mellow, either. In fact, I think digesting that cake burned some extra calories.
Today, I’ve been back on my plan. I’m about to have some carrots and bell pepper for a snack, maybe with some hummus. Tonight, I’m having sockeye salmon and more veggies, then going for a walk with the dogs. I’m not going to force myself to exercise excessively, I’m just going to take it easy on myself, because that’s how life goes.