Goals, Hopes, & Dreams

Talking about weight loss goals obscures the fact that there are some non-number things about my life I’d like to change. The numbers still matter, but I don’t want them to define me. Some of my goals include:

Lose weight for good. I’m starting (over) at 229 in September, 2010. Whoops! Let’s make that 232 in June, 2011. I’d like to reach 150, which means losing 82 pounds. 150 is 25 more pounds than I weighed in college, so it doesn’t seem unreasonable. Given my height, most of those stupid weight charts say I should be 110 to 136, but I’m trying to be realistic here.

Really, truly embrace a new way of eating. I’ve lost weight before, almost 70 pounds, on a liquid diet. While I learned a great deal from the experience, what I didn’t learn was how to eat for the long term once I was done. Slowly, the bad-for-me foods crept back into my regular meal plan. The fact is, it comes down to calories in and energy expended, and I need to learn to live that way.

Experience emotions. I’ve become an expert at pushing it all way down deep. So deep that it has taken a long time for it to come back up. I react to most emotions by eating, which isn’t healthy at all.

Buy clothes in “normal” stores and departments. I really would like to be able to wear a size 12 on a regular basis. And I have this really great suit that is a size 10. I have issues – major issues – with the fashion industry and their shaming of fat people like me, but it would be nice to be able to wear just about anything.

Dance whenever the spirit moves me – for longer than 1 song! I’m out of shape enough that I can’t really go out dancing. I’m a horrible dancer, but I love music, and wish I could bop around in front of the stage all night, or learn to swing dance with my husband without worrying that I’ll collapse from overexertion.

Take a photo of myself that I’m not ashamed to share with the world. I cannot tell you how deeply it cut into my soul when my husband mournfully said, after I sent him a photo of us at a wedding in May, 2010, that it was the first time I’d ever given him a picture of me. It hurts just to type it now.

Tackle an epic physical experience. I don’t think I’ll ever run a marathon, but who knows? I’d love to go walking for several weeks across Ireland, Scotland, England, or Spain. I’d love to get involved with roller derby, or at least reclaim my childhood by skating on a regular basis.

8 Responses to Goals, Hopes, & Dreams

  1. Cherie says:

    I look forward to following your blog. I just added it to my Google Reader, which I try to be pretty awesome about checking regularly, lol! You can do this. Taking it one day, one meal, one exercise session is what helped me and I got there. And am still getting, as I still need to lose my last 30. My start weight, which I haven’t publicized yet, was around 1 or 6 pounds of yours {depending which scale I go by because I use two}. I wish you the best of luck on your journey!!

  2. Shauna says:

    Hiya Andie! Your blog appeared in my blog stats today, i thought I would say hello! Looks like you are seriously kicking butt! I really like the sound of the Pomodoro Technique you use. Got a serious time management problem here šŸ™‚ All the best to you!

    • Andie says:

      Thank you for visiting & saying hello! You have no idea how perfect your timing is – I needed a jump-start today, and you are the person who originally motivated me to get this all back on track. The Pomodoro seems really silly, but it works. Onward – we can get on top of all of this! šŸ˜€

  3. paulbentley says:

    Hi Andie. I came across your blog via, erm, actually, I’ve been busy reading so many posts, I’m not too sure. Anyway, I’m loving what you’re saying and I’m jumping on board.

    We can do this!

    Oh, just remembered, it was Grumpy’s blog.

    Ciao

  4. Thanks for coming by my blog and giving encouragement! I hope I can be as successful as you’ve been thus far (yay! 33lbs gone!!). I like this section of your blog alot. I’ve been meaning to make a list of my goals as a way to motivate myself so maybe I’ll turn it into a blog page as well. Thanks for the inspiration! I’ll be back to read more.
    -Meegan

  5. Matt says:

    I’m starting on a similar journey as the one you describe here on your site. It looks like you’re doing very well against your goals…which is very motivating to me as I start working towards mine. Thanks for writing! šŸ™‚

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